Tuesday, July 26, 2011

Tune Tuesday - Blue October, The Chills

Today's tune is brought you you by one of my favorite bands, Blue October. The Chills is the first single off of their new album, Any Man in America, that releases on August 16th. You can pre-order it in iTunes or the band's website.


The Chills Lyrics

Whoa-ah-oh ah-ah-oh,
Whoa-ah-oh ah-ah-oh,
Whoa-ah-oh ah-ah-oh,
Whoa-ah-oh ah-ah-oh,
Whoa-ah-oh ah-ah-oh,
Whoa-ah-oh ah-ah-oh,
Whoa-ah-oh ah-ah-oh,
Whoa-ah-oh ah-ah-oh,


Take my hand
maybe we should run away
maybe we should disappear
leave everything behind
like the useless things
boxes labeled memories
the sudden health emergencies
yeah we could leave those things behind

Show me, show me arms that reach for all we can be
through understanding, I tried forgiveness,
I faced the past, it's what I witnessed

why do I only feel the chills when I'm with you?
I only hear your words that you say are true
but you keep thinking it over, thinking it over,
you can catch me if you wanted to, oh

Whoa-ah-oh ah-ah-oh,
Whoa-ah-oh ah-ah-oh,

Now, why you gotta say goodbye
when you know you're gonna come with me
no, can't afford to leave and stay
you're gonna have to just build one way

So tell me, tell me all the things you told me we could be
through understanding, I tried forgiveness,
I faced the facts, it's what I witnessed

http://www.elyricsworld.com/the_chills_lyrics_blue_october.html
why do I only feel the chills when I'm with you

I only hear your words that you say are true
but you keep thinking it over, thinking it over,
you can catch me if you wanted to
I only feel the chills when I'm with you
I feel like I'm so high, I'm feeling so high
c-catch me, c-c-catch me

why does a heart always have to break
(when you're trying way too hard), have to break
(yes she'll see right though you), have to break
oh communication, yeah conversation,
it breaks down
Now there will be nothing to talk about,
(absolutely nothing, just blah blah blah)

Whoa-ah-oh ah-ah-oh,
Whoa-ah-oh ah-ah-oh,
Whoa-ah-oh ah-ah-oh,
Whoa-ah-oh ah-ah-oh,

why do I only feel the chills when I'm with you
I only hear your words that you say are true
but you keep thinking it over, thinking it over,
you can catch me if you wanted to
Whoa-ah-oh ah-ah-oh,
Whoa-ah-oh ah-ah-oh,
Whoa-ah-oh ah-ah-oh,
Can catch me, c-c-catch me
Ohhhhhh.

Wednesday, July 20, 2011

Wordless Wednesday

Wordless Wednesday is a simple blog post featuring a photo which conveys a message that speaks for itself without using any words.


Taken during our drive out to Oregon in February 2011.

I've got the BURN!

OK... not a real burn, but an itch. And extremely itchy itch. The kind of itch where you're scouring the house, looking for a back scratcher but can't find it because J hid it somewhere that you can't find, so you lean against a door jamb and gouge your shoulder blade out.

It's been 5.5 months since I left the workforce and I miss it. Don't get me wrong, I love being at home with N. He really is the best thing that's ever happened to me. But I miss adult interaction. I miss "punching in & punching out." I miss knowing that I've changed someone's perception. Most of all, though, I miss the adult interaction.

Moving out here (OR) meant that we left a lot of our accustomed lifestyle back East... Although J's career in the long run would net a little more than what I was making plus his unemployment back home, it still wasn't what we were at with two incomes, though we were DINCs then, so we made some cuts... no more second car, extreme limitations of unnecessary expenditures, etc. As a result, I've found myself severely lacking in the adult interaction arena and also feeling that I've done extreme damage to N's social development.

Which makes me stressed. And depressed. And bitchy. And a whole host of other things that I am not proud of.

So how am I going to change this? I have to challenge myself to be as fabulous now as I used to be in front of my audience as a FTM (full time mama).

I will:
~Get N to more baby classes, specifically Storytime & signing, both free(!) at the library 3 miles away.
~Get me out of the house more, specifically to the gym. The best benefit of J's employer is the free membership. That I'm not utilizing. But I will. Zumba, here I come!
~Figure out the second car deal. Borrowing from friends is cool, except that I hate being an inconvenience. Borrowing Greenie is cool, but she's old and I'm paranoid something will happen. But 4 wheels is 4 wheels right now, so I'll manage for the time being, really focusing on how to obtain my own 4 wheels.
~Meet people, hopefully people with babies, to have playdates. Yay playdates!
~Get back to being me. The FABULOUS me that people envied. Because I do not feel enviable today.